Rough night for Cayla

Well, we slept well and no one came in last night to check my vitals.  Very nice indeed.  We did wake up about 4am, and I decided to go pump since I was awake.  Got the largest amount yet!  After 20 minutes I headed back to our room and Lowell was sitting up waiting for me.  He said my phone rang, and we got a call from Cayla's doctor while I was out.  She was losing her color and crying so they started checking her over again.  They couldn't get her vitals back where they should be, so they had to sedate her to insert a breathing tube and she is now on oxygen.  They needed to put an IV back in her, so they were able to still use the belly button to do that and she is now intubated which I guess just means she's got that breathing tube down her throat.  Lowell looked at me to see how I was reacting and asked me if I was ok and you know, I was.  Despite the emotions of yesterday, I am feeling much more at peace now.  I guess the Lord knew I needed to get it all out of my system yesterday before starting to hear news where Cayla is taking some steps back.  Lowell held me and prayed and we were both able to go back to sleep for another hour and a half when the phone rang again. 

The doctor was calling to update that she was still stable and reexplained everything to Lowell.  The cardiac doctors will be coming in to assess her situation early this morning and hopefully give us some report.  They want to figure out if something is going on that might warrant moving her surgery up or who knows.  We'll see what they say this morning.  So, we're getting ready to go back to the NICU and start our day.  Such a different feeling in my heart this morning than I had yesterday.  God is in control.  Period.  That's the bottom line and I am truly good with that.  Focus on God is my goal for today and the next few days, weeks, months and years.  I guess with a goal like that, it should never end.  :o)  God has promised to be faithful, He cannot break that or He wouldn't be God.  So, I go into my day ready for whatever happens, knowing we will not be moved because God is right here with us.

Missing my church family this morning.  My first Sunday at the hospital, and I'm sure not my last.  Thanks for your prayers!  Gotta go see my precious Cayla Joy! :o)