I really can't believe Christmas is just a couple of weeks away. Thanks to Lowell, we finally got some Christmas decorations up last Wed. We've had the tree up with the lights and my rose balls up, but didn't put all the rest up until last night. I don't think I'm dreading Christmas or anything, I just feel like I've lost a little enthusiasm for all the celebrating. I am still enjoying Christmas music and other stuff, maybe it's just taking me longer to get into it all. This really is the best time of the year with all the beautiful lights and decorations everywhere. I do love it all. We even went to the Ashtabula and Jefferson parades which was fun with family and friends! Saturday we had our church Christmas dinner which turned out really nice and fun. And last night we drove up to Lakeshore Park with some friends from church and saw the light display they have there.
I was reminded in the song "Mary, Did You Know?", that because Jesus came from heaven to earth, "The blind will see, the deaf will hear and the dead will live again." That's my little Cayla. There is a promise in that. I know we will see Cayla again. I'm not wishing it, or hoping it, or 99% sure of it... I'm 100% sure of it because God's Word says so, and He wouldn't be God if one word in the Bible wasn't true. What an awesome God!
You all will be proud of me. I've made a doctor's appointment for Thursday, Dec. 13th. I just still feel imbalanced maybe hormonally, I'm not sure. I can't seem to physically get myself back together. I've not been to a family doctor since we've been here in Ohio, and the only doctor I've been to was my OB/GYN who's no longer there. But I called their office and asked them where to start. She said I could choose another doctor from there, so I have, and he'll do some blood work and get me started on getting my health back again. Even with exercising and eating fairly well, I've gained weight and can't seem to stop it. So, hopefully I can get my life, physically, back together. We will see.
Thanksgiving brought my dad and Pat up for a visit which was so great to see them again. While she was here, Pat downloaded pictures she took at Cayla's funeral for me. I had my camera, but couldn't bring myself to take any pictures, so I'm glad she did. I'll post some of them here. In one way, it's kind of hard to see them, but I know she's in heaven which changes my outlook. In other ways, it's not hard to see them because I want to remember everything... even that day of celebrating her short little life. So, here's the few pics. Mostly they're the flowers so those who sent them can see what was sent.
|Lowell's cousin, Jodi Poole, talking to us about how the day will go and and answering our questions.|
|Dad and I talking. I guess we were looking at who all the flowers and plants were from.|
|Not all the flowers were there yet.|
|Still talking about who knows what. I guess Pat was just clicking away. |
I don't think I even knew she was taking any. I'm glad she took some but not too many.
|The little pillow in the shape of a heart with the yellow roses is from us, Mom, Dad and brother.|
They stayed in there with her. You can click on the pictures to see them better to read the cards.
|From Grandma and Grandpa Guenther|
The yellow butterfly is on her little shelf
|From Aunt Carol and Uncle Sandy Baumgardner|
This angel is made of stone and we put this at her grave site too.
|From Aunt Doris, Karla, Donna and Louisa, my aunt and cousins|
|From Cayla's cousin Hannah Sowry and Jim and Janet Slater (her mom)|
|From Ken Forging, where Lowell works|
|From the Ashtabula County Concerts of Prayer Board|
|From Dr. and Mrs. Shoemaker for Pensacola Christian College.|